The Day My Insecurities Didn't Win
Whether we like to admit or not, we all have insecurities swirling around inside ourselves.
Sometimes in life I have tried to convince myself they don't exist or stuff down those uncomfortable little gremlins. Sometimes our insecurities win and get the best of us, and sometimes we beat them to the ground, victorious in battle.
Yesterday was such a little victory for me, a day where my insecurities didn't win.
I have never been a huge fan of Valentine's Day; the hype, the commercialism, and they way it is built up, or the false way it portrays true love. Valentine's Day can often be a day that celebrates people who have someone. I am sure many of us have felt less than on one or more Valentine's Day where we weren't in a pair.
I didn't have a Valentine this year.
It is another holiday where I am slowly learning to be okay on my own, just be at peace with myself right where God has me. My insecurities of feeling alone or sad didn't win today. I embraced the silence and didn't run away from the loneliness. I acknowledged and named my feelings, but it didn't overwhelm me. Those little gremlins whispering "I am less than" or "not enough" didn't win. I kicked them to the curb.
Not every holiday will be easy, and I am certain my insecurities will arise again, but I did it. I showed myself I can do it. Whatever your insecurities are, don't let them win or beat you down. They do not have to control you and they certainly do not speak to the truth of your value and dignity.
Wherever you struggle, don't let your insecurities win.
How do you use your insecurities as an opportunity for personal growth?
What does it look like in your life to face head on your own insecurities?
Mary wrote this sweet and encouraging post yesterday...know how much you are loved:)
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Way to go, Patty!!! I love how you mention acknowledging the feelings & naming them, but kicking them down. I think that so many times, women especially have the trend to ignore feelings or problems and bottle everything up inside-I did this for a lot of my life, because it's what I saw plenty of other ladies do. But, by recognizing things and defeating them, we are so much freer!
ReplyDeleteYay for you! I've never been a fan, either.
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