I recently started listening to a new podcast with Kathie Lee Gifford.
Her show interviews all types of famous people in a casual manner, and I was surprised how much I liked it. Her loud crazy laugh and boisterous personality always made me smile growing up. Listening to one of her first episodes, it struck me how we kind of share something in common, we are both loud girl's.
I used to think being a loud girl was something negative or bad, but after one podcast episode it struck me that it is okay I am loud girl and why the world needs more of them.
Growing up, I often got that look parents give to tell me I was misbehaving or too loud. I remember a handful of times getting low grades in conduct because I was too chatty.
Sometimes it felt like being a quiet, soft-spoken little lady was considered good or better.
I grew up hearing sometimes "nobody likes a loud girl" which to some level I think I internalized. No I am not hating on my parents, it is just a way that helps me better understand myself now.
But there was always a "loud" part to my Patty-ness. Whether I got really excited or passionate about something, my volume would often and easily increase. For a long time, I thought that was bad or that piece of me was not so great. I didn't accept or even like that part of me.
In many ways, I'm still coming to accept my Patty-ness, my own way of being in the world, my okay-ness and enough-ness in the presence of God and others. Over the last few years, I have embraced my loud girl ways and came to see that is part of the awesome way God made me.
And you know what? It's damn okay to be a loud girl and I would say I think the world needs more of them. Why? Because a loud girl is excited and passionate about things that matter to her. And sometimes excitement and passion spill out of a person in big, beautiful, even crazy ways. A loud girl is comfortable in her own skin.
One of the greatest life lessons a person can learn is to really love and accept themselves the way they are. It certainly doesn't come easy, and can often be very difficult. But over the last few years, I have learned to accept, embrace, and yes, even love the "loud" part of me.
Whether you're a loud gal or quiet gal, one the best things you can do is love yourself; all the crazy, beautiful, even weird parts.
Be who God made you to be and you will set the world ablaze (St. Catherine of Siena).